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Name: Jessi
Country: United States
State: Ohio
Metro: Cambridge
Birthday: 6/7/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: Hanging out with friends, Having fun. DDR, Photograpy, Art, Psychology, Playing on playgrounds, Road Trips, Going to concerts, Working with preschoolers/kids, Psychology, the color pink, Cedar Point, and much more
Expertise: Pfft, who knows.
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ICQ:  318607915
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Member Since:
12/20/2003
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| Work is fine. There have been several days where I have
been discouraged because of happenings in my new room. Let's just put
it this way: the new group of kids was too stressful on my co-teacher,
so she decided to step down as the lead teacher and move to another
room. It is a stressful group, particularly one child. I've gotten
consistently hit, punched, kicked, bit, spit on, etc. by a 3 year old
for the past 2 months. Things are getting better, but there are still
days when I wonder if I'm cut out to be a teacher. I know that it's
what I want to do with my life, but it's frustrating that one child can
make me feel that way. I let myself be discouraged and stressed for a
few weeks, and then I decided to change my tune because I hated the
teacher I had become in such a short amount of time. So instead of
being discouraged every day and wanting to change classrooms, I decided
to change my attitude and be more positive. Since then, things have
been immensely better and my relationship with my co-teachers and the
kids have improved significantly.I'm glad that I made
the decision to change my attitude, because I was getting really
stressed and kind of depressed. There are still days when I get
discouraged, but I just veg and vent and move on. It makes life a lot
easier when you make the conscious decision to change your attitude and
be positive - and I'm glad I made that decision. Since the lead teacher
stepped down, the position of lead teacher opened up and I interviewed for it. I didn't
get it, but I'm OK with it and I'm OK with the teacher that got picked
- it was only the 2 of us who interviewed. She started in the room on
Thursday and things are going really well so far. I'm excited for what
this group of kids can accomplish, and what I can accomplish as their
teacher. The group is really great, and the kids are so cute. I really
love them, and I still love my job. I still stand by the fact that
there is no comparable feeling to when you walk into a room and are
greeted by a chorus of people yelling your name because they are
excited to see you - that moment alone validates me in what I am doing
right now. But there are many, many other moments that make me happy
and make me feel validated as a teacher. I really love what I do, and
can't imagine doing anything else with my life.
I did end up
getting a second job. I got hired to work part-time at Old Navy, and
I'm really excited. my first official day of work is on Monday. I'm
pumped to have the extra income, the discount on clothes, and something
else to do. Hopefully I'll be able to make more friends and do more
things.
My brother went to jail on September
26. He FINALLY had his pre-trial after a year and a half of pushing it
back, and they set the trial date. Instead of going to trial, the
prosecuter offered him a misdemeanor offense with 6 months in jail.
Since Tim had already served about 1 month when he first got arrested,
his sentence got lowered to 5 months, and he asked the judge for 30
days before he went in so he could tie up loose ends and see family. So
I got to see my brother on September 5, and
won't see him again until at least the end of March. It is a hard thing
to deal with, but at least it's over - kind of. And I understand why
Tim took the offer, the trial would have cost another $5000 that no one
has to give him to pay for the lawyer, and Tim could've gotten a much
worse sentence than 6 months in jail. Hopefully when he gets out he
does something better with his life...go to school and get a college
degree or something.
My dad had shoulder surgery in March. When
he went back to the doctor for a final visit in September, the doctor
told him that although the shoulder was healing fine, my dad wouldn't
be able to continue with his current position with AT&T because of
the physical demands. So my dad started applying for managerial
positions - none of which were in Ohio. I found
out today that the job he applied and interviewed for in California
offered him the job, and the week after Thanksgiving my dad and Becca
(who will be married on Nov. 22) will be moving to Ukiah, California. I
understand that this is the best decision right now...but it just
sucks. I guess I'd rather my dad have a job than not...but it's not really fair.
In
2 years, my brother gets arrested & goes to jail, my mom moves back
to Vermont and my parents get divorced, my dad gets remarried and moves
to California. I just am feeling discouraged and upset. I know that my
parents getting divorced was the best thing for them, I'm happy that my
dad found someone else, I knew that if my parents ever separated my mom
would never stay in Ohio, and I understand that my dad taking this job
is the best for him right now...but it doesn't make these things suck
any less. After 22 years of your parents being together - it's
difficult to deal with, especially with both find someone new within 3
months of the separation/decision to get a divorce. And I like Becca
& Leon, but regardless of how much I like
them, they are never going to replace the last 22 years of my parents
being together. And it will never be easy for me to see my parents with
another person. I'm glad that my parents are happier, I'm glad that my
mom can be there for her side of the family, I'm glad that they both
found someone else to be happier with, but it just simply sucks. They
will be on either side of the country, and I'll be in the middle. My
brother won't even know that my dad is moving to CA for another few
weeks because he hasn't been placed yet. I didn't really lose my
parents...but I kind of feel like I did. My mom is in Vermont, my dad
is in Cambridge, and I'm in Cleveland...so physically I have lost them. And it will be even harder once my dad is in California.
Like
my entry title says...2008, I thought you were supposed to be better? I
guess I was wrong. And it wasn't entirely terrible, it's just that the
things that suck are kind of big deals. Because this sucky drama lies
within my family, I'm going to say that if it wasn't for my friends I
don't think I would've made it through this year as good as I did. It's
been another rough year for me...and there are still 2 months left. The
family that wasn't involved in the drama helped too...but it's hard
when all of your family is siding one way or another and makes it
difficult.
Sorry for the pretty depressing journal entry...but I needed to get it out.
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| I love living by myself, I still absolutely LOVE my job. Unfortunately,
there are some negative points - nothing is perfect  . First, I'm
lonely. I have Kevin and I have his friends, but they all live farther
away from me and do things where they live - which makes sense, but is
terribly inconvenient for me to ever go out and do anything because of
the driving time and gas. And gas leads to negative #2 - I make just
enough money to pay my bills and that's IT. When I first moved up here
Kevin mentioned that I might have to get a second job and I didn't
think he'd be right.....but he was. I need to find something to
supplement my income so that I can afford to do ANYTHING other than sit
around my freakin apartment all the time. I'm getting bored and
lonely, I need some friends and some money. Anyone interested?
Haha...just kidding.
Negatives aside, I do love my decision to
move here. I don't regret it and haven't even a little bit since. My
job is amazing and I love going to work every day. It's a very
rewarding experience, and I can see myself staying here for a while.
Things are good.
P.S. 'The Usual Suspects' was a freaking amazing movie. I was disappointed in 'The Other Boleyn Girl' though. | | |
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So things didn't go exactly as I had planned them a month ago. The
apartment I had in Shaker Heights went down the drain when the guy
screwed me over the Thursday before Memorial Day weekend so I had to
frantically apartment search and take a day off of work to come to
Cleveland and look at apartments. I found one in Parma and I love it!!
I started my job at Bright Horizons/Bank of America Child Development
Center on June 9, and I friggen LOVE it. I'm a co-teacher in a Pre-K
room with a guy named Greg, who is awesome. It is so rare that you
find men working in the preschool/daycare realm, and it's always
refreshing. I absolutely love my job, I love my kids, I love my
co-teacher, I love my bosses, I love my co-workers, and I just
all-around love my job. Taking this job and moving to Cleveland is one
of the best decisions I have ever made. I've gotten a lot of really
great feedback about my performance so far, things like how I've
impressed a lot of people and that basically I'm an awesome teacher.
The Caudill's were looking to find a new home for their cat because
they had been spending less time with her since Ty was born, so I
decided to take her. She hated me for a little bit, but now she's OK,
She even likes me a little bit! Haha.
Melissa and Grant got married this past weekend (June 14) and
everything went well. Melissa looked gorgeous, the wedding went really
well, and it was fun.
My car over-heated on Thursday, when Kevin and I were supposed to leave
to Cambridge for the wedding. So we stayed at my apartment on Thursday
and took it to a garage on Friday, turns out that my fan died and it
was going to cost me $420-something to get it fixed. Luckily some
wonderful people loaned me the money and my car got fixed, and now my
air conditioning works! Woo-hoo!
So I think that's all now.
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| I'll be moving some of my stuff into my apartment in Shaker Heights in 2 weeks, then the rest of it in 3 weeks. I start my new job on June 9. 
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| I graduated on Saturday, and it's still kind of surreal. I don't think it'll really hit me until I start working.....
Speaking of...the daycare in
Beachwood called me for a second interview - had it today/Monday
annnnnd...............I GOT THE JOB!!! I'll be starting in a couple
weeks, I just have to get paperwork filled out and figure out about the
apartment. I think I had the guy's number wrong because he hasn't
called me back yet. But I'm going to try again tomorrow and hopefully
I'll be moving in as soon as he can get the apartment ready. I'm really
excited and really nervous.  Just thought I'd share the good news!!
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